Just another normal day,
school was rather slack,
and training.
Pitched a tent,
it's quite obvious that our unit's standard is going down.
Today, somebody told me,
she doesn't feel sorry for those who never try,
or something along that line,
it got me thinking, a lot.
And we got locked in school,
right, locked in school,
some how we got out,
no in the mood to elaborate.
Tuition was alright,
only got me and Wanyi,
cause the rest are in camp,
I MISS THEM.
This was the first time,
that both of us felt smart during tuition.
xD
Seeing the amount of emails I have yet to read,
35, on the captain's ball thingy,
and the convo windows popping up,
I wanna scream.
I feel very very down now,
don't bother reading if you don't want to,
most probably will not make sense to you.
I feel like shit.
What is becoming of us,
I don't know.
Sometimes, I have to smile and pretend everything's alright,
but deep inside,
you know things are not okay.
Don't ask me what's the problem,
I don't know how to say,
I can't express my feelings well.
I wish B&J can make this feeling or feelings go away.
And, don't take me for granted,
I don't like it.
We used to be so united and bonded,
now, internal conflicts popped up,
and there is this 'politics' feeling going on,
I don't like it.
Yeah, should leave all these to W and M.
If feels like you're pointing the gun at my head,
and the words you said,
nearly caused my heart to stop beating.
Well, sometimes,
you wonder, who are your true friends,
other than Jesus of course,
there are friends who know you so well,
that they know when you are feeling down,
hi bye friends,
friends whom you bitch to,
friends whom just sits beside you in some class,
friends who leave you when you need them the most,
friends who are never close enough to understand you.
Oh wells.
`What hurts most
